My name is Brianna

but you can call me bree

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Photographer, wife, mother, grandmother, , artist, survivor, exploring worlds of spirituality, art, beauty and creative pursuits is the path I'm taking. See you on the way...

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What a week…I was beginning to to wonder if I would share on here or not, this was a hard week, I always try to compartmentalize my projects, feelings, etc. I think I am doing this blog thing to sort of break that, to merge my love of art and my healing and my self discovery where ever that may land me. Free form, not something I really allow myself to do in any of my areas of my life. I had a two hour therapy session this week and it was good but hard and I choose this photo because after about an hour of feeling intense feelings ( something I am learning to do, feel my emotions) I began to block. Other survivors know it’s a technique we learn to protect so when I get flooded with emotion I block it out and shut it down. I was going through a visualization with my therapist where I would breathe in clean air and breath out the black thick choking block that has been my protector, but I have to learn that it’s OK to feel, I don’t need it now, such a hard thing to learn.  I am a new to this blogging but I thought it was a great way for me to write what I feel since I am always on the computer anyways and I like to write and not edit, who cares if it makes sense or not, write and publish and it’s out. I can’t be the only one and a really great thing is I have gotten messages from others and I cant tell you how great it feels to know your not alone when you take your mask off for the world to see “you”.

What a week…I was beginning to to wonder if I would share on here or not, this was a hard week, I always try to compartmentalize my projects, feelings, etc. I think I am doing this blog thing to sort of break that, to merge my love of art and my healing and my self discovery where ever that may land me. Free form, not something I really allow myself to do in any of my areas of my life. I had a two hour therapy session this week and it was good but hard and I choose this photo because after about an hour of feeling intense feelings ( something I am learning to do, feel my emotions) I began to block. Other survivors know it’s a technique we learn to protect so when I get flooded with emotion I block it out and shut it down. I was going through a visualization with my therapist where I would breathe in clean air and breath out the black thick choking block that has been my protector, but I have to learn that it’s OK to feel, I don’t need it now, such a hard thing to learn.  I am a new to this blogging but I thought it was a great way for me to write what I feel since I am always on the computer anyways and I like to write and not edit, who cares if it makes sense or not, write and publish and it’s out. I can’t be the only one and a really great thing is I have gotten messages from others and I cant tell you how great it feels to know your not alone when you take your mask off for the world to see “you”.

The end of a day…..

Today was a day, just a day, which is actually a good thing. Tomorrow I am heading to the used bookstore and will browse the shelves for tarot cards, I am always looking for decks that I can add to my collection that are out of print. I love books, have so many, such a great escape I have been so engrossed in non fiction that I am going to spend some time in the fiction section. I didn’t include a piece of art today maybe I will start carrying my camera and at least having a reason to take a photo. I don’t want to add to much, right now I am just trying to write in here at least once a day, to much and failure to little and I don’t feel accomplished. sucks. So with that g’nite.